how can I face this?

I asked the universe for 2012 to be a year of strength, and I suppose this is my first major test.

I need to add cheeseburgers to the menu for this year's dia de los muertos.

I don't know how to describe how special my uncle was to me and to my family.  I could never do him justice.  His rooster dance, his rendition of the Davy Crockett theme song and joy in food and drink and ability to never, ever forget a face or a name don't paint the whole picture.  His death brought my broken family back together, at least momentarily.

I am forever grateful that I was able to be at his side during his last moments.

I love you, Adrian.

I'll get back to normal, happier things soon.